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If you don't want to hear some strangers ramble on about how hes been feeling lately then just ignore.
I've been so tired lately.
Uggh, trying to do a stressful thing because it needs to be done and is extremely worth it. Get too nervous and scared to do it. Rinse and repeat until you want to sleep for a thousand years. Know you cant sleep for a thousand years because one, it is biologically impossible-you would die too soon for it to happen. Then two, you cant do the really important thing if you sleep for a thousand years. Life is wonderful- it's great but I'm annoyed with myself and life. I just want to power through this shit but I get tongue tied which makes it impossible, and I'm just in a rut I guess? The only way to get out of it is lots of stupid courage but I'm not like that.
So I just keep on telling myself I'm going to do it-then nothing. Life would be easier and I wouldn't have to deal with this as much anymore but at the same time... Saying something that people can very easily judge you for. Even though it makes no sense for the people in question to actually judge you. You know that they aren't like that, their chill, they are all wonderful people. However your brain screams you will literally die if you do even though that makes no fucking sense at all.
It doesn't help that I'm running on four-five hours of sleep. I want to sleep and draw at the same time. I also need to do an art dump onto dA again. I'm going to either sleep, draw/paint, or try to entertain myself since happiness is nice and shit. Sorry for these walls of text, I just want to post something onto here and don't want to hunt for my files and stuff.
Good whatever-time-of-day-it-is-over-there anyway and be for now.
I've been so tired lately.
Uggh, trying to do a stressful thing because it needs to be done and is extremely worth it. Get too nervous and scared to do it. Rinse and repeat until you want to sleep for a thousand years. Know you cant sleep for a thousand years because one, it is biologically impossible-you would die too soon for it to happen. Then two, you cant do the really important thing if you sleep for a thousand years. Life is wonderful- it's great but I'm annoyed with myself and life. I just want to power through this shit but I get tongue tied which makes it impossible, and I'm just in a rut I guess? The only way to get out of it is lots of stupid courage but I'm not like that.
So I just keep on telling myself I'm going to do it-then nothing. Life would be easier and I wouldn't have to deal with this as much anymore but at the same time... Saying something that people can very easily judge you for. Even though it makes no sense for the people in question to actually judge you. You know that they aren't like that, their chill, they are all wonderful people. However your brain screams you will literally die if you do even though that makes no fucking sense at all.
It doesn't help that I'm running on four-five hours of sleep. I want to sleep and draw at the same time. I also need to do an art dump onto dA again. I'm going to either sleep, draw/paint, or try to entertain myself since happiness is nice and shit. Sorry for these walls of text, I just want to post something onto here and don't want to hunt for my files and stuff.
Good whatever-time-of-day-it-is-over-there anyway and be for now.
Something really good for me
I have a job now! I need to go on a hell commute for training, but that's only bit while wait for health inspectors to check out the closer location and hopefully approve it.
Hopefully anyone reading this on a job hunt finds one soon! It's really frustrating to hear back from nowhere.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
I just am screaming quietly in my head.
Theres no reason for it
it just
is.
Gah
I just realized I put a bunch of my stuff in the wrong category... I have no words for myself. No. Words.
Goal number 1:
Stop uploading art here in huge dumps and upload when it is done instead.
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